Christmas

My mom's side of the family for Christmas exchanges names for the adults. I was one of the last adults to go during the exchange. I had no idea who had me though it was down to 3 family members. I honestly couldn't have asked for a better person to be me...my papa. He gave me great gifts. He is such a thoughtful man. He got me 2 gifts cards, that is what I asked for since I wasn't sure what sizes to give nor if I'd be in maternity clothes. He got me foot lotion with super soft socks to put on afterwards, if you know my papa you know he hates smelly stuff so for him to get that was pretty surprising! :) He also picked out, with the help of my grams, a maternity coat. It is perfect! I'm already wearing it! I can still wear my other coats but there is something special about this coat. Lastly there was a gift I was instructed to open last. I had no idea what it was. I opened it and it was a baby's first set. It came with a monkey bank, a monkey container for the baby's first tooth and lock of hair. As I looked at it I began to cry. He also gave me money to put in the bank, such a sweetheart. I felt so much love from him at that moment and how proud he is of me. It was so overwhelming! He is beyond excited for this baby and really pulling for a redhead! He told me the pressure is on to have a redhead since my niece and nephew are looking more like blondes these days. I think this has been the best Christmas exchange I've had so far! I love the monkey set and may have just found my theme for the baby's bedding and room! :)

It has been hard for me to be excited up until now but so see the love he and my other family members have for this baby and myself is overwhelming. I'm learning it is ok to be excited and go out shopping for the baby. So I'm excited! I can't wait to find out what I'm having on Friday!! And I got to feel the baby move last night and this morning. Such an amazing feeling. Pretty cool I'm the only person who can feel it right now! Such a special bond is being created right now between the baby turnip and I! :) Super exciting!!

The Big Reveal!! Well not really...

Last week I made my ultra sound appointment. January 6 at 2:20. I am pretty excited and super excited my sister is able to come with me! Once I find out what I am having I can go shopping. And I will start the task of making my baby registry! Oh the joys!! Luckily I have my sister to help me navigate that overwhelming task! I went into Baby r Us a few weeks ago and I couldn't even figure out where to start looking and what is the best to have. I also looked online and was so overwhelmed with everything I gave up! lol But thankfully to my sis she has taken on the task to help me navigate, whew! I can't wait to start picking things out, though I do have this awesome stroller with baby carrier picked out already! It may be overwhelming but I am definitely becoming more excited!

Oh and there is an itty bitty bump-looks more like a beer belly right now! Pictures soon to follow!!

Movement

Friday morning between 4 and 5am I was laying in bed trying to fall back asleep when I felt this weird exciting feeling in my stomach. I thought to myself that was weird but just rolled over and went back to sleep. Once I had started my morning I starting thinking about that weird feeling I had earlier that morning. I thought to myself...was that the baby?!?!?!?!!? So I decided to call my sister to see what she thought. After waiting for her to call me back she and I discussed what I felt and sure enough...it was the baby. Most articles, books, and even my phone application said baby movement is normally felt between week 16-18 and then it will become stronger later on. I'm in week 15 and hadn't even thought I would feel the baby already. I was amazed at what I felt that morning. It was an exciting feeling that was quick and amazing. I lay still a lot more in bed hoping to feel that precious movement again. Ever since that exciting feeling and realizing that is my baby moving I have been filled with pure amazement and joy. That was the one thing I so desperately needed to move me to excitement. Don't get me wrong I am excited about this bundle of joy. But lately all I think about is the changes I will be making or figuring out. I am stressed more than excited. That exciting feeling, my baby moving, let me know I need to relax and enjoy these moments. I realize things won't be perfect when this baby arrives but I do know it will all fall in place in His timing. I have to remind myself this is in God's hands and He will take care of this baby and I. God knew what I have been needing in the past few weeks and blessed me with the greatest thing ever...waking me up at 4 am so I can feel my baby move for the first time. I'm not sure any exciting feeling I have from now on will ever be better than that morning. Thank you God for this blessing!!!

This baby and I are going to be ok. I just need to be patient and feel the movement.

In the Beginning...

I have decided to keep a blog so my close friends and family can follow along with me on this crazy journey I have begun. For those of you who don't know what journey I'm speaking of I'll start from the beginning...

I found out in October that I was pregnant. I was 6 weeks when I found out. Currently I'm at week 14. I have had 2 doctor appointments so far and things are going well. I have been able to hear the heartbeat at 9 weeks and my 14 week check up. It was much easier to find the heartbeat this last appointment. It is an amazing sound to hear I must say. The doctor says I am measuring where I need to be. And no I'm not showing yet. Doc says my torso is longer and it will be awhile before I show since I have more room for the babes! Week 18 I get to find out if I'm having a girl or a boy. I'm super excited!

The doctor has been wonderful and extremely supportive. I pray he is on-call or I go into labor during the day so he is there to deliver the baby! I feel like Katherine Heigel from Knocked Up!!

I am not with the father of the baby but he and I are on speaking terms. All I can do at this point is take it a day at a time. I mean really, what else is there to do? I have learned in the past few weeks he has to make the decision to be in this baby's life and if so great if not I'll survive. I have enough family and friends supporting me and cheering me on I'll make it either way. I don't see the father and I getting back together, he thinks it is a possibility but I highly doubt it. I avoid the topic to avoid a fight or awkwardness. I know being together for a baby isn't healthy for anyone involved and I will stick to that. I pray for the best in this situation.

If you have any questions about my journey please feel free to ask! I ask for prayers and support as I figure out this crazy journey! Love you all!!